Wondering what to say....
Life, has been.....fragile?
I'm not sure that is the word, but life has been like the constant ringing in my ears, quietly annoying and keeping me on the edge.
Right on the edge.
Things are slowing starting to fall apart, but I'm doing everything I can to hold it together.
I had a long chat with my oldest today, he is the only one who can calm me out of my constant worrying and settle me long enough to stop the ringing in my ears (apparently it's stress related). He said, 'Stop Mum. Stop thinking everything you do in life will be perfect, don't worry if you make mistakes, don't worry if you can't make that person happy, be you. You've stopped being you.'
He's a wise young man.
I wish everyone had a boy like him.
He is my rock and my voice of reason.
I have stopped being me.
I have stopped creating in case what I make isn't perfect, that I won't love it, that it won't meet what's in my mind's eye.
So today, I stopped my endlessly worrying.
Picked up my hook and stitched a few rows.
I even worked on an old sewing machine that had frustrated me, it just needed some patience and tweaking and now it sews like a dream.
For once, I'm ready for bed, relaxed and smiling.
Determined to stop worrying and start stitching, which always makes me smile.
Thanks for listening and most importantly, thanks for stopping by.
Toodles...L x ♥
You don't say what the problem is but I am sure your son is right and hope that in stopping the constant worrying you will reach some sort of solution/acceptance of whatever it is and that life will continue and become more peaceful for you. I am sure your creativity will help too. A friend sent me this lovely quote which might help you too: "I wish I could show you, When you are lonely aor in darkness, The astonishing light, of your own Being" so be yourself as your son said. There are those who care and are thinking of you and keeping you in their prayers.
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ReplyDeleteI feel the same way occasionally too. You are so lucky to have someone to put you back on track.
Your crochet is lovely.
Have a nice day! Gaia...
You're not alone.
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So glad to hear you have such a wise son and that you're creating again! Sometimes you've just to put yourself out there and not let yourself worry... which sounds easy, but...!
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