Wednesday, June 25, 2014
And then she stopped.....
I've been thinking about this blog post for days, maybe weeks....
Wondering what to say....
Life, has been.....fragile?
I'm not sure that is the word, but life has been like the constant ringing in my ears, quietly annoying and keeping me on the edge.
Right on the edge.
Things are slowing starting to fall apart, but I'm doing everything I can to hold it together.
I had a long chat with my oldest today, he is the only one who can calm me out of my constant worrying and settle me long enough to stop the ringing in my ears (apparently it's stress related). He said, 'Stop Mum. Stop thinking everything you do in life will be perfect, don't worry if you make mistakes, don't worry if you can't make that person happy, be you. You've stopped being you.'
He's a wise young man.
I wish everyone had a boy like him.
He is my rock and my voice of reason.
I have stopped being me.
I have stopped creating in case what I make isn't perfect, that I won't love it, that it won't meet what's in my mind's eye.
So today, I stopped my endlessly worrying.
Picked up my hook and stitched a few rows.
I even worked on an old sewing machine that had frustrated me, it just needed some patience and tweaking and now it sews like a dream.
For once, I'm ready for bed, relaxed and smiling.
Determined to stop worrying and start stitching, which always makes me smile.
Thanks for listening and most importantly, thanks for stopping by.
Toodles...L x ♥